Mookii · World · Upside · Down!

Well, it's not, but, well, I have not updated for like ages as I have nothing to update with!!! I mean what have I done except the following:

DJ - once
Get drunk
Dance a bit
Think about d-r-u-g-s
Decide not to take d-r-u-g-s
Re-arrange my desk at work
Got a payrise (!!)
Got frustrated with the uni application people

On a good note I have spent lots of time with friends doing fun stuff :) Lee & I got really drunk at his last weekend then went to town and just had a really funny night! Hmm, Dan & I are alright, bit bumpy again, the 'I might move out' thing has come up again...... :-s

But hey, it'll sort out soon, I shall just keep drinking :)

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I am the Tea Queen. I am unable to drink anything with caffeine in at the moment, so I have herbal tea's, and lots of em. Currently on my desk I have the following:

Nettle Tea
Cherry Tea
Tangerine, Peach & Echinacea Tea
Peppermint Tea
Strawberry & Vanilla Tea

It is good, I feel so much better for cutting the caffeine out of my diet.

Urr, thats about it really.

OH, AIR HAMMER are confirmed for the birthday gig :) Yay!!!!!

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Hello hello! This weekend was odd, Friday I got, well, to say I was very very very drunk, would be an understatement! I went to PoS, it was ok, the music was a bit rubbish though, but it was good to just chat with Jones, Lee & Jay. Saturday was spent food shopping and being in pyjamas and watching crap telly and Sunday was lovely with lots of people coming to see us and eating yummy food and drinking wine!

This week is Dana be good and detox and exercise week :) Lots of swimming and green tea and fruit and things.

Oh I am tired.

I have to go do some work too, yuck.

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Hmph. Strange times we live in huh! I am no longer moving out of Dan's! I am just rubbish. So yes, thought I would just let you all know :)

It is Nicholas's birthday and louise is quite quite ill. This is not good.

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Better today! I am happy and smiley and things are good. Kinda.

I have got lots of things on my mind at the moment. I'm still finding things very hard after Becca dying and I don't think I have still fully accepted it... Although, through her death it has made me realise a lot of things about my life, things like, I want to do as much as I can with my life, I don't want to be reliant upon any one except myself, my friends are so important to me. I love Dan to bits, but I don't want to become too cocooned in him, which I felt for a while I was. This has led me to think about, and discuss with Dan, the possibility of me getting my own place. I just feel that I want to be more independent. Dan and I moved in together very quickly, well, within 3 months of getting together, and I don't ever feel that I have proven to myself that I can get by on my own. Also, my mum has decided that she is going to move back to Cornwall, which kinda sucks, but also has made me think lots! I feel that, if Dan and I were ever to split up, that my mum's no longer there as somewhere to go, and as much as my friends love me and I love them, I would never want to impose on anyone, so I also feel that I don't ever want to be in a position where I would not have any where to go. Getting my own place would make sure of this. I have spoken to Dan about this and he does understand. I know he does not want me to go, but I really feel as though this is something I might have to do.

I know people might think it strange that after living together that I would move out from Dan's, but it doesn't make anything different between us, if anything, it will be nice to have opportunities to miss each other, and nice to have space, and he won't have to put up with any more of the girly things I like to have around the flat! It does feel odd to be even thinking of moving again, and the feeling in my stomach tells me that I will miss Dan loads and that I don't really want to move, by my head tells me that this is just the best thing for me to do. I don't know if I am doing this to protect myself or what, I just think it is something I will have to do.

Hmm, so that is my biggest news.... Meeting Louise & Carlos tonight for dinner, I shall have to see what they think.

Work is boring today, I am pretty much her by myself, it's not as fun as you might think. I have loads to do but I just cannot be bothered.

Never mind. Right, I should go!

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LOUISE HILL, AGED 15, IN THE MET LOUNGE LOO'S DOING SOMETHING ODD!!!!!

(N.B she isn't really 15, I have no idea how old she'd be in this picture, but 15 looks about right!!)

I cant do the walk
I cant do the talk
I cant be your friend
Unless I pretend

So give me the song and I'll sing it like I mean it
Give me the words and I'll say them like I mean it

Cos you got my heart in a headlock
You stopped the blood and made my head soft

I am rubbish at updating this thing! But I do have lots to write about.

So I have organised a holiday to Cornwall for me and friends and that should be fun, that is in May, I have also nearly organised the Birthday gig thing, we have a date, a venue, now all we need is a few bands..... Please apply in writing with a demo, I have already made the mistake of booking bands without listening to them, needless to say i shall never make that mistake again!!! Yes, so i am very organised, well, the month of May is any ways! Good good!

Hmm, so what else has happened? Nicks gig, was, err, drunk. I knew there was a reason why I did not drink cheap sugary additive filled alcoholic beverages...... Never again shall I drink those nasty archers things or cherry lambrini, hang over from hell which included being sick on my way to work, also the below pictures are enough to make me not want to drink anything ever again:

Haha, fantastic.

Hmm, what else has happened? I learnt to play some wicked stuff on my flute, I'm going medieval on yo ass! It sounds so good..... I hope ;) Ask Dan, he has to put up with me (trying) to play it!

Saturday was, unusual.... I started drinking at about, Ooo, 2pm, and carried on drinking till, well, I can't actually remember, I spent a shit load of money though! Never mind, plenty of fun was had. Went to Gem and to Brewery Tap and saw Point of Origin (who are fucking amazing!) and Opaque, who I didn't really see but who sounded good.

Sunday was just Sunday..... Hung over and remembering different parts of the weekend.

And so another week begins.

This weekend is Nicholas's birthday though so is going to be much fun..... Yes, I am thinking about next weekend already dammit.

And, why am I having massive urges to take copius amounts of drugs and drink myself stupid?? I have these feelings every so often.... Somethings trying to hit my self destruct button. I'm doing pretty well at resisting. So far.

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Where did it go? One minute is was Friday evening, and the next I am sitting here at 00:50am thinking I should go to bed else I am going to be soo tired tomorrow.

Although it has gone quickly, I did have a wicked one! Highlights included, dancing with Louise in the DJ booth thing, seeing Jay (woo!), dancing with Jay (it was like 2003 all over again), drinking immense amounts of vodka, being told by a lovely lady that I am amazing and that I should DJ all the time (mwahahahaha!), smiling sweetly at bar staff and getting free drinks ;). The downside to the highlights are my hangover, and, yeah my hangover! I had some very interesting conversations too last night, you know those convo's where someone reveals something to you which you knew all along but never had any confirmation of, haha, and yes, it is funny!

It was nice to see and speak to a few people I haven't had time to catch up with lately and was good to just be able to fall back into old ways with them and it be comfortable. I do however regret getting as pissed as I did as early as I did! I shall have to try to not repeat that ever again........ I shall have to start drinking MUCH earlier, it makes the night so much more fun and makes you say the craziest things to people...... But apparently I did not embarrass myself, but I am taking friends at face value on that one as I am 99% sure I did some stupid things!

Ah well, I am off to bed now, else I am just going to keep typing and typing shit at you. x x x

As above.

It really does suck. I want to go home and relax. Wooo, our boiler is fixed again now! Yay for hot water and baths with bubbles ;)

Ok, I have nothing more to say really. Empty head :P

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Samsung D600 all miiiiiinnnnnneeeee :)

Thank you monsieur Daniel for being soooo nice to meeeeeeee :)

I like playing with it and taking pictures with it and it makes lots of funny noises! Oh technology!

*Ah hem* Any way, I must go, we are having time sheets at work at the moment and I don't think '10:30 - 11: Updating my Livejournal' will go down too well ;)

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I promise to keep this one updated.

Well, what a great start to the new year. My dad was poorly, bladder cancer, but he is on the mend now. He had a big operation and they removed his bladder and things and so now he should be ok. Dan and I went down to look after him for a week, it was good to see him and I really think it has improved my relationship with him. I have never really found it easy to talk to my dad, but now it is much easier, and he is also being a lot more honest with me.

Now things at work are a bit rubbish. We are a really small company, there are now only 6 members of staff. Last week our youngest, Becca, was driving home and she had an accident and died. It has come as a massive shock, she was only 19 and was getting married this year. She was a good friend to Sally and me. Our boss has been crap with it. He is already looking for a replacement for her (in secret) and, to put it bluntly, she's not even been buried yet. Sal and I are going to the funeral on Thursday, I am a bit scared really as I know that on Thursday this will all become real.

I am really thinking about handing in my notice as, well, I am unhappy here, Becca going has shown me how little respect my boss has for any of us and also, life is too precious and short to be stuck hating most of your waking day. I have applied to go back to uni in September, I really hope I get in.

I am getting on fine and am happy otherwise. Dan and I are very good :) and taking care of each other well. Life is good.

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